Happy Easter Day


Happy Easter Ya’ll…

Yesterday, I had a fantastic time at church. It wasn’t because it was Easter and me and the kids were doing the casual easter flyness!

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It was because I just needed to be in the house of God and enjoy worship music and be in a space filled with good people trying to do good things. Say want you want about religion, Christianity, Islam, any faith, or whatever. I promise you if you go into a church, mosque, synagogue, or any house of faith during worship 9 out of the ten people around you will be people who want to do nothing but be good people and be good to you. Belief stuff aside its good to be surrounded by good and God. That is truly a blessing.

We had a visiting speaker and she got up there and both broke and healed my heart in her  five minute speech..

She  looked so happy, so vibrant, so Easter fresh and fly. I was prepared for a good story happy story about how great life is when you are cute, blond, and bubbly. But that chick got up there and made me do the UGLY cry right all over my neighbors unsuspecting shoulder.

She told a really heartbreaking story about losing her husband in a horrible accident and the kind of brokeness and pain she found herself struggling with after his death. The way she talked about the way her heart broke, how agonizing that pain is… Was  TOO much for me cause while I don’t know it through death, I know that pain too well.

On one hand, I was sitting there asking God to restore me like he restored her and on the other hand I was sitting there thinking nothing that terrible has happened to me, you should be ashamed for sitting here feeling like your struggle is anything like what she must have gone through and you are like 8 gazillion times better now. Its true… I feel so much better now. For the most part I feel restored…

Time really does heal all wounds. But just because a wound has healed doesn’t mean its still not a wound.

So as she was speaking she referenced a bible verse that left me breathless. I am not a bible scholar, but….

Psalms: 34:18 (The Message)
If your heart is broken, look and you’ll find God right there;
if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.

Chile.

CHILE.

C  H  I  L  E.

I almost got up and cut a rug right in the middle of her speech.

Cause that mess is truuuueeeeeee. (yupp all those u’s and all those e’s were NECESSARY).

If your heart is broken, look and you’ll find God right there.

If your heart is broken, look and you’ll find God right there.

If your heart is broken, look and you’ll find God right there.

You know… I have so much more to write… But I’m deeply exhasuted from a day full of looking for and finding God. So I’ll just leave you with that.

Look into your broken places. Get down right to the very core of where it hurts and look. And while I know you will find some jagged edges, some painful memories, some real tragedies, some unimaginable pain, and some deep deep heartbreak,  I know that if you want him there… If you look closely deep in your pain, you’ll see God there too. But I promise you… He’s in there doing the work… Healing you one day at a time… Hold on, love. Hold on.

SistaTV Loves You… No you love you and treat yourself like it.

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